adria :]

hazard0us @ 2002-06-03T18:15:00

2002-06-03T22:16:18Z

i just want everyone to know that i made a new journal: purrfecti0n. i'm making it friends only though so add me<3
for the people who are already on this list, i will move you all to my other journal.. just don't forget to add me again ;]

xo.adria.

last.night

2002-06-02T17:37:18Z

last night<3. it was great. jason and i just watched movies and when those were over we watched tv. he liked the present i gave him. i got him a yellow Etnies shirt from PacSun. we ordered pizza and had that. my mom got him a cake too. lol. when she told me i was like awe. he got really embarassed. my mom really really likes jason. she thinks he's really sweet and that he's just really great ;] after we had cake, my sister dragged us upstairs and we talked to her for a while about stuff. my mom is really mad at her. i had to help her sneak this guy out of the house this morning. it was interesting. but anyway, being with jason was so great. we were both really tired so we basically just layed on the couch and watched tv. when he left last night he gave my mom a hug. i was like awe cuz you have no idea how happy i am that my mom likes him. it's so great. today is our 3 week anniversary. i can't even express in words how happy i am with him. he is the best thing to happen to me. i really hope we stay together for a long time. i love you jason<3

xo.adria.

birrrrthday

2002-06-01T16:37:34Z

today is jason's birthday :] happy birthday jason!! i love you so much. i can't wait to see him. he's coming over at 4:00<3.

the.mall

2002-06-01T02:04:51Z

just got home from the mall. it was awesome. sami and i just kinda wandered around for a bit. we looked for a lip ring for her and at other belly button thingys for me. i only had $10 with me and i saw one for $20 that i like want really bad. oh well. i'll get it next week. we followed these funny boys around for a while and they they followed us. it was weird. but fun. sami and i went into the bathroom and when i went to the sink, i put my a&f bag down. when i picked it up, o man, it was like drenched. the entire area by the sink was flooded and i didn't even know it. i was like crying. we had to go into delias to get a bag to put my purse in. i'm such a winner. as i was trying to revive my bag, my cell rang. it was jason<3 he said he might come to the mall. i was so happy. a little while later we ran into kar and the three of us walked around for a bit. we were going up the escalator, well i thought we were. they changed their minds and walked by this store and they stranded me at the top ;[ it was great. i had to walk all the way around the mall to get back downstairs. when i got down finally, we saw annie, john, britt, alicia, and some other people. we all went into old navy and tried to steal this big frame thingy that said "Item Of The Week". annie put her face in it and sami took a pic. britt put her crotch in it. they tried stealing it but this lady saw them huddling and trying to sneak it in their bag and told them to put it back. oh man it was funny. we all ran out. we all kinda separated after a while and it was just me kar and sami. after like a half hour, we were down by hot topic and jason and dave walked in. he picked me up and hugged me<3 he got his hair cut and it looks really good :] more people started coming around and there was a bunch of us. we basically just walked around a bit. then we went to fun and games and jason played a vibrating video game. i think he was having too much fun. a bunch of us went outside. the rent a cop was yelling cuz he wanted us to go inside but like everyone wanted to smoke. he wouldn't let bobby's girlfriend even light hers. he was a fucker. yeah so, we hung outside and then i hadda leave. it was a fun night. jason is coming over tomorrow and i can't wait. it's gunna be really nice :] i feel so gross cuz of the humidity and it being like 90 outside so i'm gunna go take a shower. laterrr.

xo.adria

hottness

2002-05-31T20:43:52Z

school was especially great today. i was in such a good mood and like it was fun ;] in bio, justin and i spent the whole period laughing our asses off cuz there were 5 boxes in the corner of the class filled with dead cats. it smelled so bad. and then jen drew this picture of our algebra teacher and all three of us burst out laughing. aw man it was so great. the cats were there for disecting. justin and i suggested that we throw them around the room for fun. she said no though. oh well. hm so, i slept in algebra and in spanish some people did their projects. i felt so bad for tommy. he looked like he was gunna cry. he was doing it on margaritas and he brought non-alcoholic of course but mr. picardo told mrs. korch not to let him because it was "innapropriate" and that it would be promoting alcohol to us and saying it was a good thing. it was so fucking stupid. its not like we don't know what it is. most of us started getting drunk in 3rd grade. i mean, seriously. then, sami did hers and she brought in this salsa stuff. we stole it and me, her, annie, tiph, and brianna ate it in the back of our room. it was nice. tiph and i went for the juices. it was some good ass salsa. i have to do my project on wednesday. i have no idea what i'm gunna do it on though. i was thinking probably Shakira ;] oh yeah, and i babysat yesterday. it wasn't so bad. it was actually kinda nice. i played baseball with them. yeah, i tried. then they proceeded to throw board games around the room to see if they could kill eachother. i was like if you say so. but i got 10 dollars. i guess that's ok. after school today i went to the mall and i bought a new belly button thingy. it's a bar with a white diamond star at the end and another smaller star dangling from it. it's cute. tonight, i'm going to the mall with sami at like 6 or 7. i'm probably gunna buy some clothes or something. i need clothes. tomorrow, jason's coming over :] i can't wait. i get to be with him all day and we get to just hang out and have fun. aw it's gunna be great. I LOVE YOU JASON<33!!

xo.adria

hazard0us @ 2002-05-28T21:01:00

2002-05-29T01:09:03Z

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you + me together forever
*5.12.02*

hazard0us @ 2002-05-28T16:53:00

2002-05-28T20:55:47Z

tomorrow = school. oh boy, i really don't wanna go back. it's gunna suck a lot. at least it's a three day week. oh and i have to babysit again on thursday. fuck no ;[ on saturday, jason is coming over. it's his birthday <3 he's gunna be 17. i can't wait to see him. god, i love him so much.

xo.adria.

hazard0us @ 2002-05-27T20:14:00

2002-05-28T00:21:18Z

Which Avril Lavigne Song Are You?

yesterdayyyy

2002-05-27T17:13:11Z

yesterday was ggrreeaatt :] jason came over at like 5:30 and we watched this really freaky movie. after that, we went down the street and played basketball for a little. these little kids were like watching us. it was weird. then we came back to my house and watched billy madison cuz it was on tv. it was a lot of fun to be with him especially just the two of us. yeah, so we had a lot of fun. today, i'm not doin anything. i'm too lazy to go anywhere. i'm just gunna sit around. i'll probably lay outside by the lake for a while and listen to music or whatever. yup :] well, that's it. i love you jason.

X . adge . X

the show

2002-05-26T17:48:17Z

last night was great. britt and annie and i got there at like 7 i think. there weren't as many people there as i thought but it was still good. i got to meet pat and some of jason's other friends. they were so nice. i felt like shit for like 2 hours but then i felt better ;] i also almost like fell asleep on jason cuz i was so tired but then we went for a walk and i got some air and i kinda woke up. the superspecs played last. omg they are so good. it was like amazing. tim was like walking around with annie's jacket on and it was so tight on him that he looked like a turtle. o man he's great. him and markus were driving home when jason and i went for a walk and they saw us and they were like, o0o0o!! lol. they are so funny. not much really happened at the show, it was just fun cuz i was with jason and everyone. karen got her septum pierced. it looks like it hurt but she said it didn't. it looks cute on her tho. so yeah, i got home at like 11:30 and i fell alseep right away. jason called me and the ringing woke me up and like scared the shit out of me. i stayed on the phone with him for like an hour but i started to fall asleep so i went to bed. today, jason is coming over at like 5. he's gunna bring a movie and we're just gunna hang out. i can't wait. two days in a row i get to see him :] i'm so happy. i love him so much. that girl tricia ended up apologizing to me. i was glad she did cuz i don't like when people are mad at me, especially when they don't even know me. so, i feel better about that. yeah, and i was supposed to be going away to my house in NY today and tomorrow but my mom changed her mind which is good cuz then i wouldn't get to see jason. this weekend has been pretty good so far. my sister went down the shore so it's a lot quieter then it usually is. my mom is also surprisingly in a good mood today. yeah, i kinda have to find stuff to do on monday and tuesday tho. especially tuesday cuz wayne has off of school but like jason and other towns don't. oh well.. i'll figure something out. i guess that's it. i'm gunna go. i love you jason.

X . adge . X

;] <33

2002-05-24T23:03:06Z

i got back from the mall like 20 minutes ago. we only went for like an hour and a half. i got jason his present. i can't say what i got him though cuz he reads this ;] i was like searching in the store and annie helped me find it and i was like awe and i had to get it. i'm hoping he's gunna like it. i'm pretty sure he will though. i also went into Express, for myself, and i got a grey jacket thingy like the black one i have. it was on sale from $40 to $18.50. i was like niice. after that, we kinda just roamed around. there wasn't much else to do. as i was coming out of the store i got jason's present in, my cell rang and it was him<33 i was so happy! he called from the concert and i told him how i can definitely go tomorrow and stuff. it was so great to finally talk to him. it's been like one day. lol. so, today was pretty fun. it's so fuckin hott out though. it's like 80. i can't wait until tomorrow. it's gunna be great :] i love jason *5.12.02 - Eternity*

X . adge . X

there's just something about his smile

2002-05-24T20:49:18Z

nothing special happened today. school was boring. i took a spanish test and i definitely failed. i suck. tomorrow's the show. my mom said i can go i just have to find a way to get there and back. britt says she can probably take me and she'll let me know. i hope so cuz i hafta go cuz i want to see jason. he might not be able to come over on sunday at all because i have to go to NY from sunday to monday. of course my mom had to do this this weekend. ah this really sucks. jason even tried to call me last night but now i have no way to reach him cuz he's going to the concert. my cell phone said missed call and i went to see the number on my phone so i could call back and i accidentally pressed the wrong button and it erased the number >:| i was like nooo. ah annie just called me. she can take me to the show tomorrow :] and me and her are going to the mall in like 10 minutes. woo. i'm gunna get jason's birthday present!! i hope he'll like it. i'm gunna go get my stuff together. i love you jason.

X . adge . X

better.day ;]

2002-05-23T20:22:43Z

today was alright. better then any other day this week i guess. yeah. ok this girl tricia who is jason's friend or whatever like hates me and i dont get it cuz she doesn't even know me. in her journal she calls me a bitch and she says that i am a bad influence on jason. how the fuck am i a bad influence!?!? because i love him and i make him happy!?!? and how would she know anything about our relationship anyway. she's never met me and has never seen us together. jason likes me a lot and so he has talked a lot about me to his friends after we met. i'm assuming she's just jealous cuz jason is actually happy now. the world doesn't revolve around this girl.. jason IS allowed to have a life and have a girlfriend. we are really happy together and it amazes me how people can be just so unbelievable. she doesn't know shit about me. i'm a good person and i love jason so much. she also thinks i wanna kick her ass when i don't. i don't fight people. it's such a waste. jason just assumed i did cuz i was upset when i found out she called me a bitch when i'm a complete stranger to her. but you know what i don't really care. i have other things to worry about. school was kinda fun today. in spanish sina and sasha were passing everyone cake. aw man it was great. my teacher is so stupid. she doesn't notice anything. we were all eating under our desks and like laughing our asses off. it was great. this girl also brought in the Selena CD for her cultural project and we were dancing. that class is great. mrs korch hates us tho. i think she wants to kill us ;] oh well. saturday i'm hoping i can go to the show. if not, jason is gunna come over on sunday to hang out anyway so i get to see him. i can't wait. i wanna see him soo much. i miss him. he's going to the blink and green day concert tomorrow. i hope he has fun. i'm pretty sure he will :] i have no homework tonight. niice. i'm gunna go to sleep at like 8 after my shower. well, that's all for now i guess.

i love you jason.

X . adge . X

my.heart.is.slowly.breaking

2002-05-22T21:04:50Z

i just had another fight with my mom. wtf i'm not even doing anything. i asked what was for dinner and she's like i think we'll order pizza and i'm like nah i'm not gunna have any i'm not in the mood for pizza. when i said that she started flipping shit. she's like "every time i say something you shoot it down!!." i'm crying right now and being screamed at when all i said was i didn't want pizza. it's not even like i said it with an attitude cuz i didn't. i fucking hate this shit. i hate her.

bad.day

2002-05-22T19:12:43Z

yeah. today was kinda bad. in art jay s. was trying to like apologize to me about making fun of me. i got mad and told him to fuck off cuz he didn't really mean it. he wouldn't leave me alone but finally did. i'm upset today. the past few days have sucked. a lot. i got in this big fight with my mom last night. she said i can't go out for a week unless i start going to bed at 10. i was like riight mom and then she got even more mad and made it two weeks. i left this morning and didn't even say anything. we are kind of talking now. i know she doesn't actually mean it cuz well, it's my mom. we aren't getting along this week cuz she has to go to court soon against my dad and it's making her be all mean and so i'm being all mean back to her cuz i can't help it. oh well. uhm in spanish today i had to do a skit of bargaining in front of the class with bri. i was freaking out cuz i don't know any of the words. i did ok tho. i think i got like a B ;] our class sucks and she got really mad at us near the end of class so she gave us like 13 activities to do for HW. we all started like laughing. i'll probably do like 3. i'm soo lazy. and i just don't care. school is pissing me off. they like force things upon you like you have nothing else going on in your life and no problems of your own. at least it's almost over. few more weeks. i'm gunna bomb my finals. i know it. i'm just stupid. i just wanna crawl into a little hole. also, i don't sleep at night anymore. i got off the phone with jason at like 10:30 so i could try and sleep cuz i was so tired but i didn't sleep. i don't get that. i'm tired as hell but i can't sleep. instead, i fought with my mom and eventually got to sleep a few hours later cuz i just cried for all those hours and it made me really exhausted. at least i slept, right? yeah. the only thing good in my life is jason. the only problem with us is that it's like impossible to see eachother. we hang out like once a week if we're lucky or once every two. i'm not about to break up with him tho. i love him soo much. i don't know what i'd do without him. that's the only part of my life that's good. everything else just sucks. i want our relationship to work even though it is long distance. i have math tutoring today and then i'm going to sleep. i have like 3 days worth of homework but oh well. i don't feel good today either. this sucks. well, i guess that's all. "it happens to the best of us." lol jason. i love you!!

X . adria . X

stupid stupid day

2002-05-22T00:56:03Z

today sucked. it was such a bad day. we had our student council election for next year.. stupid!! uhm jay small and RJ made fun of me and didn't think i heard them.. but yeah, i did. stupid fuckers. i hate people. i wanted to cry cuz i am like overly sensitive to everything but i was like that's stupid cuz they are ugly bastards. but yeah, i slept in history cuz mr puglise said we could cuz he didn't feel like teaching. it was nice. uhm after school i had to fucking babysit. i wanted to cry my eyes out.. it was so bad. the kids were out of control and i was like yelling cuz they kept hitting me but they just laughed. i was like I HATE YOU!! it was horrible. i have to babysit them again next week. i don't know what i'm gunna do. maybe i'll get hit by a car so i won't have to go. yes, that's how bad they are. after i got home, annie and i went to the pequannock carnival at like 6:00. it was so bad. it was like the size of my backyard and it was all filled with bitches and hoes. it SUCKED! ;] we went on that ship ride thing and when it was OVER, this girl started throwing up. annie started running and was like, "GET IT AWAY FROM ME!!!" aw man.. we saw alison schultz and we followed her around "undercover". i blew it though cuz i was eating my snow cone in front of the snack stand instead of behind it where annie was clinging against the wall "spying". oh man it was fun. we walked around, annie ate a weenie, and then we played with our cell phones. now, here i am, bitchy as hell and ready to kill someone. jason is having problems too and that makes me upset. everything just sucks today. well, i'm going to go drown myself in the shower ;] laterrrr. i love you jason!!

xOoX adria

aww annie ;]

2002-05-20T23:04:43Z

X Iittle angel [7:00 PM]: i'm shakira
PeaceInUnity [7:00 PM]: no your not
PeaceInUnity [7:00 PM]: you dont shave cats and eat their fur
X Iittle angel [7:00 PM]: LOLOL

here we go

2002-05-20T22:11:19Z

humm. today sucked? yeah it did. school was school. it sucked. i hadda like do a skit in biology which was stupid. i was some lesbionic person who wanted to clone their cat or yeah uhm something fun like that. i had math tutoring today. it was boring. scott like fell asleep. i was like okay.. fine by me. then he like made me tell him my life cuz he was at the show and saw me with jason and he made me tell him everything. so i did. he tells me everything about him. i dont ask though. hMm. oh well. uhh i got a call before and i hafta babysit tomorrow after school until 5:00. kill me now. i don't want to. the children are DEMONS! they make me walk down the street to the deli and the playground and they like push me in the road. they want me dead, i swear. they are adorable though so i guess it makes up for their satanistic ways. kind of. yeah, so i might be going to north carolina this summer for a week or so. ugh it will suck. i'll be stuck with my mom and her boyfriend. i'm bringing someone though so it's ok. anyway, i hope i get a lot of money tomorrow after babysitting. i need money. i am getting jason a birthday present and money is needed in order to purchase one. i already know what i'm getting him i just hafta go to the mall and buy it. i'll probably do that friday and drag anyone along who wants to come with me. looks like annie will be the victim ;] she said she wants to come so yeah, there we go. on thursday, i'm going to the carnival in pequannock. should be fun.. hopefully. jason is off right now drinking again with markus, dave, and some other people. i hope he sings drunkenly to me again later like he did on saturday. he's so funny. aw, i love him ;] i am really hungry. i'm gunna go find something. i love you jason!!

xOoX adria

yeaaah

2002-05-19T17:35:09Z

i was right. sunday is sucking ;] jason is pretty hung over today. when he called last night he was extremely drunk. he was singing a whole lot and he thought he was reptar for about 3 minutes. i was like oh my. it was hilarious though. we are gunna get drunk together on saturday at the Nutley show ;] should be fun, right? yeah. i'm sleepy today. i was on the phone until 2:30 i think. aw man, i don't want to go back to school. it's gunna suck a lot a lot. we have next monday off though. woo. should be grreeatt. annie just informed me that we also have next tuesday off. oh sweet ass :] this rawks. i'm gunna make myself have overly way too much fun next weekend. i'm gunna spend as much time as i can with jason. yeaaaahh. i miss him a lot. it's hard that he lives kinda far away but it's worth it. i sure do love him.. more then i thought i could. it's just like the perfect relationship. he says the sweetest things evveerr ;] hmm you know what i also need? money. yeah.. real bad. i start my job in a month. i'm sucking up all my freedom now before i have to go through hell. i hate going to the mall with no money. i stare at things in stores and like drool cuz i want something. who knows, maybe soon enough i'll actually be able to get something fun.

yeah so it looks like we're all gunna die. they are saying that osama is gunna strike again. hopefully he'll hit wayne valley. i'll give him a handshake for that one. only that though. yeah, and when i'm not in it please. thanks ;] he's probably dancing incessantly to techno music in his manhatten apartment building with a big sign outside that says, 'this is not where osama lives'. we are kinda retarted in finding this guy. i could like invite him over to hang out and no one would notice. but yeah, oh well i guess there's not much of anything to do except pray that he hits wayne somewhere useless. yeah like the wayne hills mall. people there are mean. look at me ramble on. i don't even know what i'm talking about. laterrrrr.

i love you jason.

xOoX adria

hazard0us @ 2002-05-18T23:53:00

2002-05-19T03:53:21Z

i had fuuunn tonight :D annie came over and we did funny things with our hair. we looked so hott. she was drawing on my wall and i threw a tampon at her head and like knocked her out. o man we laughed so hard.. it was great!! she's the only person i've seen all weekend so it was nice. she left like a half hour ago and we were talking about my house and the ghosts that live in it and we got scared. she's not the one stuck here though. it's scary. my computer like turned itself off before and i wanted to cry. when i was home alone before i swear it sounded like someone was following me around. i locked myself in my room lol. yeah, i'm pathetic but that's alright. i haven't heard from jason. i hope he had fun. my cell died and i dunno if he tried calling it and he's not online. i guess i'll talk to him later. uhh yeah. people are funny. lauren especially. me and her are making fun of people. aw it's fun. i love her. she's knocking people off her tree of bitches and hoes. this weekend has gone by really slow. tomorrow is probably gunna just suck. i can feel it. sundays.always.suck. ah jason just called. i'm gunna go.

xOoX adria

aahhh

2002-05-18T21:02:16Z

i'm feeling a lot better from this morning so jason and i were gunna hang out but now we can't anyway cuz he can't get a ride to wayne. eh.. oh well. he went out with markus for a while and i'm hoping annie can come over. i'm hoping cuz she's grounded. i haven't seen a living soul this whole weekend and it really sucks. Stir of Echos is on tonight at 8:00 so i have that to watch but that's it. there's a show at skaters world tonight too, but it's going to suck and i don't wanna go alone. so yeah, i am sooo bored. i'm waiting for annie to call me. this weekend has really sucked. i miss my boyfriend so much. i love you jason.. with all my heart, forever.

xOoX adria

:[

2002-05-18T15:07:44Z

i went to bed early last night.. like 8:30. i woke up at around 10:30 though cuz jason called. he said he was having a bad time. we are supposed to hang out today but now i can't cuz i woke up still sick and now i have a fever :[ i'm soo disapointed and i know he will be too. i want to see him so bad. now i'm not gunna see him until next weekend at the Nutley show, if i can even go. ah this sucks. why did i have to get sick.. it's so unfair. i guess there's nothing i can do. and just talking to him is still good :] well i'm going to lay down. i love you jason.

xOoX adria

hazard0us @ 2002-05-17T17:42:00

2002-05-17T21:45:42Z

i was so miserable in school today. i'm still sick and my voice is all fucked up so i sound retarted. uhm well.. last night at the carnival i had a lot of fun. i didn't leave jason once. god, it was so great to just hug him all night and be with him. i'm so in love with him. everything is just perfect in right now. we both hadda leave at around 10 but i didn't wanna go. he was so cute.. he picked me these flowers like right outside of the church and gave them to me. it was soo sweet. i still have them :] he called me like 15 minutes ago to talk for a minute or two. he's at prom and says it's not fun but i'm sure he'll have some fun. i hope he does. he asked if i got his email and i hadn't been online yet so i just came on to read it. ok well, i opened it and after i read it i just started crying. i felt so pathetic lol but it had to be the most amazing letter i've ever gotten. nobody has ever said things like he did to me before. i just love him so much and i can't imagine myself with anyone else. I Love You Jason!! with all my heart.

xOoX adria

uuuuhhhh

2002-05-16T19:15:50Z

i'm all stuffed up today and it's not fun. school was sooo boring today. the chorus people went to boston for a competition and i'm in chorus but i didn't wanna go so there were only like 10 of us there. we had to be in the auditorium but there was no teacher. we all just sat around doing absolutely nothing like idiots. tomorrow a bunch of us are leaving and going out for food or something instead of sitting and staring at a wall for 45 minutes. as for tonight, the carnival starts at 6:00. i need to reach jason so he can talk to tim but he isn't home yet. eh.. hopefully he'll be back soon. i can't wait to see jason tonight.. i'm gunna be sooo happy. sami kinda made me mad today but it's just the way she is so it's not a big deal. tom and i were walking after school and he's like, "so you got a boyfriend now?" i'm like, "yeah" and sami is like, "yeah.. he's really hot.. i want him soo bad!! when you pointed to him at the show saying you wanted him i was like damn!! cuz i wanted to get to him first." i was like uhh.. yeah. it doesn't bother me though cuz sami is the kind of person who likes like 4 guys at a time.. it's just the way she is. she can want jay she just can't act on it cuz i'll be verrry upset. i know she won't though and i know jay loves me so i'm not worried. but enough of that. i can't wait until tonight!! well, i'm gunna go be bored until later. i love you Jason.

xOoX adria

my days are cold without you

2002-05-15T17:04:04Z

today has been a bad day :[ i woke up for school and i couldn't like move cuz i was feeling so shitty. my mom forced me to go to school though cuz i've already missed 12 days. i started crying cuz all i wanted to do was go back to sleep. well, i went to school and took my english test first period and i definitely failed. after first period, when the bell rang, i was walking to my locker and i felt sooo dizzy. i couldn't see straight and i almost fell over. so when i got to health 2nd period i asked to go to the nurse cuz there's no way in hell i could make it through the day. i felt like i was gunna pass out at any given moment. so yeah, my mom came and got me and here i am. i just woke up cuz i came home at 8:30 and fell back asleep. i feel a little better, i guess. i'll be in school tomorrow though cuz i get to see jason tomorrow and if i don't go to school i can't go to the carnival. i'm sure i'll be fine by tomorrow anyway. this is probably happening cuz i haven't really slept in like 3 days. but yeah, i'm gunna go watch some TV in my room for a while. i love you jason.

xOoX adria